Accepting Injury – The Five Stages of Grief

As I was laying on the couch pouting a couple of weeks ago, Mrs. Golden Trails made the following observation: “Running is your other spouse. Right not she’s not there, and you’re going to have to work hard to deal with that.”

Ice Road Truckers Poster

This post will connect Kuebler-Ross with Ice Road Truckers. How? Read on to find out.

As usual, Mrs. Golden Trails is right.

I found myself going through different moods and somewhere along the lines realized that I was going through the 5 stages grief.  Kuebler-Ross is calling!

Denial – This really went on for about a month.  My leg kept feeling tight/hurting at various pain levels for about a month.  No, I didn’t listen to my body.  That’s breaking a cardinal rule.  However, I will say that I didn’t think I was injured…just really tight.

Anger – This stage came mostly right after the Canyon Meadows race, where I DNFed and finally realized I was injured.  I knew, I was mad and tried my hardest not to take it out on anyone, namely Mrs. Golden Trails.  My strategy was to keep things “in”.  It was hard, since I generally cope with issues by running.

Bargaining – “If I stretch a lot, I’ll be fine.” – “This will only take a few days as long as I rest a lot.” These are just a couple of thoughts I had as I said pouring over maps plotting future runs and mountain adventures.  That was pretty silly.

Depression – Once I realized that none of my bargaining strategies was working and that my planned summer adventures in the Sierras and Rockies were likely not going to happen, I was pretty down.  I didn’t want to do much of anything.  As a result, I watched way too much “Ice Road Truckers”.

Acceptance – This is where I am now (thankfully!).  My focus is now on the fall season (North Face 50 mile championships), and I’m simply getting a lot of rest before I commence my training.

Or something like that.

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